"I see. Which leads me to think that maybe I,
too, am overholding my emotions too much and hurting myself more than
necessary, perhaps."
"I presume so."
"But it's hard, you know."
"I agree. So, isn't it about time it's okay for you to forgive yourself
now?"
"Forgive myself?"
"Right. To put an end to hurt yourself further in order to hold down your
sadness. Finish. The end!"
She looked at me in surprise.At that moment, the wind slipped through
inbetween us again.
The wind said to us:"You are precious."
"Oh, yes, I see...... Hey, did you hear that?"I
said.
"Yes, very clearly. But, am I really precious?"
The wind told us again."You are a precious person."
"Yes, you are. You are precious no matter how you are. And, I am precious
no matter how I am."
"Even I who lost my child?"
"Ofcourse. It means that the precious you had unfortunately lost your child.
Whether the issue of the loss of your child exists or not, and whatever the situation
is, and whenever it may be, you and I are precious."
"So, it is okay to be me, however and whatever I am, whether I am angry
or sad or afraid."
"The wind was always telling us that."
"Let's go."
As I said that, I hesitated.
"Ofcourse, only if it's okay with you,"I added.
She gave me a big smile and began to swim ahead.The vibration echoed
vividly. We began to swim slowly and straightforwardly to its direction.
We will never be played upon according to the whims and fancy of the
anger and fear and sadness stored deeply at the bottom of our hearts.We
go on to the direction of where the wind blew from, at a pace in which
we are able to enjoy our surfacing emotions.
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